Barely there

She was happy and jolly as if the world had no claim on her,

Alone, but never lonely,

Whole, even with a few pieces missing

And she had so much love to give.

She was the light in the darkness,

The warmth in winter,

The sun of rainy days,

And the petrichor of the first rain.

Now…it all seems to fade

I don't see her anymore..

All I see is a girl surviving a life she can’t bear,

A girl who wakes up with no will to rise,

A girl who folds into herself when the world gets too loud;

head tucked between her knees.

I see a heart that’s shattered, that aches and yearns for the love she deprived herself of,

She was there when everyone needed her.

Now she sits in the corner of her room, wondering where it all went wrong..

I see her holding onto herself as she sleeps with tears running down her cheeks,

The scars on her hands and the blood on the sheets…

I see her suffocating in her room

As if she’s drowning in the weight of her own existence..

I hope, if not life, may death be kinder to her…